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Starbuck by WolfPawzArt

Starbuck is my second Siberian Husky. Named after the character Agent Dana Scully in The X-files; her father called her "Starbuck" after a character in the famous novel "Moby Dick". She's a snuggly, sweet, and bossy little girl! I love how she makes her presence known as she bounces around and scream/howls and "Scolds" me with her low howl/growl/talk when I come back to visit once every few years as if to say: "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? Don't you dare leave us again!" :heart: I love "talking" with her and I even imitate her excited noises at my fiancé when I'm excited about going somewhere! lol

She and Arrow (my first, male Siberian Husky) were great inspirations for my artwork. I raised them from puppies in Pennsylvania, showed them in dog shows for confirmation, and took hundreds of photos of them (almost completely with film cameras which is part of the reason why I don't have many photos on here - just a few of my favorites.)

When I had to go to school in New York and my mother moved out to California, she took the Siberians and our retired racing greyhound (Juice) with her. My mother passed away from breast cancer on the west coast mere days before my flight was scheduled to go back out to see her again. My dogs remained on the west coast and stayed with my Aunts and grandmother since I lived in apartments that were not pet-friendly.

After so many years, the dogs became a part of the family, grew older, Juice passed away, and I knew it was best for the rest of them to stay on the west coast rather than crate them up and put them on a stressful flight to live here (even if we lived in pet-friendly housing... and my fiancé wasn't allergic. lol) I've been able to visit a number of times and stromie has met them both two years ago and we visited a second time last year. Since then, my Aunt and Sibes have moved to Seattle where my Aunt lives happily retired and newly married to a very kind man. :date:

I got a troubling email and call from my Aunt earlier this week said that Starbuck wouldn't eat. X-rays at the vet showed the tumor on her liver was pushing into her stomach. My Aunt was afraid that Starbuck was uncomfortable from this and caused her to lose her appetite. She was also afraid Starbuck would starve herself because of it. She told me that Arrow seemed confused - he didn't know what was wrong with Starbuck but he knew it wasn't good. My Aunt didn't seem to indicate whether surgery was viable or if it was just too expensive. But surgery can sometimes be as traumatic if not more so than letting them live out the rest of their days despite the cancer.

Starbuck is 12-years-old, which is a good long life for a Siberian Husky! And although I've lost my mother to cancer, my grandmothers to old age and diabetes, and had many pets pass away or put to sleep due to illness, old age, and other suffering... and I even tried to get my mind around the fact that my Siberians would live with my Aunt until they pass away, this is still incredibly tough for me.

Part of it is due to shock - I was stunned that she was so ill and I had been expecting Arrow's failing health to take him away from us first. Part of it was because I don't want another loved one to die before I see them one last time.

I was trying to be strong and kept my emotions in - I didn't even let myself cry after the phone call. But days later after enough miscellaneous stress (drama from DA, anxiety about the merger at work that could leave me jobless in a few months, and mistakes at work) happened and made me break down and cry for much of the night on Tuesday and a even more Wednesday morning.

Just this morning, my Aunt sent another email with an update that she is doing much better: eating, able to walk once around the block before she gets tired, able to get on the couch where she likes to sleep, and even nudging Arrow out of the way when he's hogging the water bowl! (Arrow was just starting to become less afraid of her since she's been so placid and weak.) This is tremendous news! I know that it's only a small come back, I still won't be able to visit her in the next few months, and she's not cured but at least she's not going to starve herself and she can enjoy some of the things she loves for a little while longer. I will keep people posted! I hope that I can share more good news but even with the recent change in her mood, I know she has lived a happy long life and she cannot live forever.

I'm flattered, honored, and grateful to have so much support -- kind words, beautiful artwork, prayers, and selfless donations -- especially when I'm feeling so helpless.

Thank you all! :heart:


:iconeditplz: Thanks to the brilliant idea of Nippon-Okami, I will accept donations to raise money for tickets to Seattle to visit my dogs, my Aunt, and my new uncle!


The following are pay-to-use deviations (prices starting as low as 20:points:) <s>and a button that you can use your Paypal account to donate any amount to my Paypal</s> My paypal button doesn't appear to be working so my paypal address is carriestariha [AT] gmail [dot] com - Thank you so much!!


APPROX PRICE: $1000
PAYPAL FUNDS: $334
THANK YOU :icongraphix-goddess::iconwolfforce58::iconneko-kotori::iconmereni:! :tighthug:
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Sky-Strike Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2013
The fundraiser seems like a marvelous idea! You've gone and touched so many deviants here and inspired us all, I'm sure you'll find help among your friends. ^_^

Hopefully the funds will come soon enough for you to see Starbuck soon. :hug:

I don't have much money right now, my boss didn't pay me on time because he's been struggling with his own health issues. But if I get the chance, I'll throw a little money your way. :heart:
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wolfforce58 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2013
When I hit the PayPal Donate button it gives me an error page...may I have your Paypal address?
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: My paypal is carriestariha [AT] gmail [DOT] com - If I don't raise enough to visit Starbuck, I'm going to contribute $ to *InsaneRoman - she's a sweetheart in a lot of financial trouble. She wants to be a teacher but she can barely afford her phone and doesn't have support from her parents for college.
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wolfforce58 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
Thanks! I wish you the best of luck! And if you're unable to raise enough that's still pretty awesome that you'll give it to a friend in need =) Best wishes!
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:iconcrazdude:
Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much for all of your help and support! :tighthug: It really means a lot to me right now! :huggle: I hope that I can see her! Even if it's just for a weekend ♥
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TzikiiWolf Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Student Filmographer
Awww Im glad Starbuck's getting better :3 I really hope you can visit them! Best of luck! I would help if I could :huggle:
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LonelyBlackWolf Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013
its good to hear that!
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canobefnur Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad to hear Starbuck's doing a bit better. <3
And even though it's not much, I bought one of your 20:points: bases.
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:iconcrazdude:
Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much, bub! :tighthug: You're so sweet! ♥ I hope you enjoy the base! :huggle:
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MunchyPaws Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Student Artist
I'm gad to hear that your dog's doing a bit better :hug:
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Astral-t1m3str3tch Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I will pray that Starbuck gets better and stronger each day!! I'm so relieved that she's eating again!!! *will definitely donate when I get my paycheck tomorrow!*
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fangs211 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013
keep on hoping for the best!
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Keyoto-TheFox Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug:
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FuchsiaTheWolf Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i would love to donate, but I'm 13 with like 5 bucks :I
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:iconcrazdude:
Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
No worries, bub :hug: Anything you can do to spread the word would be a tremendous help and greatly appreciated! :tighthug:
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Alakime Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm happy to hear she's able to enjoy life a little longer C:
:hug: Once I get paid I'll try and donate some <Hopefully soon>!
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: Thank you for your support, bub :hug: And I understand finances are tough for everyone - anything you can do to spread the word would be a tremendous help and greatly appreciated! :tighthug:
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Alakime Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
^^ Best of Luck!
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Graphix-Goddess Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Writer
Oh you poor dear.... I donated a little. Hope it helps you somewhat. Even if it's just to buy some treats for your dogs :( I hope Starbucks recovers or at least is in less pain.
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: Thank you for your support, bub :hug: That means so much to me! I wish I could hug you! :iconsupertighthugplz:
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Graphix-Goddess Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Writer
Aww, I'll consider myself hugged, then ^__^ I could use it anyway - been having a rough week myself :blush:
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Awww no! That's no good! D: I hope that you have a great weekend to wipe the nasty week away! :huggle: You truly deserve it for being so sweet even when you're having hard times! :tighthug:
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Graphix-Goddess Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Writer
:hug: Thank you!
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AngelOfNightshade Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013
Its great that she's feeling better! We're all rooting for her~ I would donate but i dont have any spare money at the moment, but I will advertise you!
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: Thank you for your support, bub :hug: And I understand finances are tough for everyone - anything you can do to spread the word would be a tremendous help and greatly appreciated! :tighthug: Thank you so much! ♥
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AngelOfNightshade Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2013
No problem hehe. It's the least I can do c:
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BreakNeckViolet Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013   Traditional Artist
:hug: I am so happy that Starbuck is still fighting, and I will keep you both in my thoughts! :heart:
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:iconcrazdude:
Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: Thank you for your support, bub :hug:
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:iconbreakneckviolet:
BreakNeckViolet Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013   Traditional Artist
:tighthug: You're very welcome, dear. :hug:
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IamETOH Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
:hug:
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KarmaDash Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oooh I wish you the best of luck :D
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Dragon-Art14 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Student General Artist
"Starbuck" makes me think of the coffee brand...lol
It's too bad that you're losing her. Though it's true she has lived a good long life and not all dogs can live very long or as long as she has. I hope you're able to see her at some point before she goes :) And it's great that she's started to eat and walk around again too. It shows she's willing to fight a little longer until you can see her. ^^
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: Thank you for your support, bub :hug: And I understand finances are tough for everyone these days so anything you can do (even to spread the word!) would be a tremendous help and greatly appreciated! :tighthug:
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Dragon-Art14 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Student General Artist
No problem :) Will do ;)
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WolfPawzArt Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
im glad to hear she is doing better!!!
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:iconlordfell:
Lordfell Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I'm rooting for you Starbuck!
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stormydog123 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Good news she is doing better!
I am so happy for you
(I think arrow is not)
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:iconrindiny:
Rindiny Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Student Filmographer
Thats GREAT news! I'm so glad shes feeling better!
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nightspiritwing Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013
if I can sell this 3ds XL I have on monday, i'll definitely try to donate a little to ya :) <333333
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:iconcrazdude:
Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle: Thank you for your support, bub :hug: And I understand finances are tough for everyone these days so anything you can do (even to spread the word!) would be a tremendous help and greatly appreciated! :tighthug:
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Greenpolarbear47 Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That's great news! I'm glad she us feeling a bit better! :hug:
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Mister-Winchester Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Im so glad to hear she is doing a bit better~
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MochaCheetah Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist
This is fantastic news, Craz! If you'd like, I'll do a journal feature for you, you deserve to see your family!
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:iconcrazdude:
Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle:
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:iconkaapse:
Kaapse Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Great news, I hope everything continues to get better!
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Akimune Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's indeed a good idea to raise funds, keep this up! I hope people will help you, I can't really do since I also raise funds for booking a flight to Chicago, etc! :(
Sorry! :hug:

I'll advertize you!
Also again sorry for your dog, grandmother, mother and all! You sure went through a lot of hard times in your life, I never really witnessed such things yet except for with my pets... :heart: take heart!
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:huggle:
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f-oxes Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Crazzy that's wonderful! :'D I'm so so happy for you! She's a fighter! I hope you get to see her soon! :heart:
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Nippon-Okami Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so amazing, like our prayer were heared!
I am so happy for you that your dog is doing better. It must be very though :/
And I am also feel sorry for your mum and grandma... I lost my Father 3 years because of brain cancer, and I were just 13!
Anyway, that more than fantastic news!
I still hope you will be able to visit her tough....
Why don't you open a donation pool to raise money for a ticketß
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Crazdude Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
It's awesome to know she's feeling better! It's like she's playing a terrible joke on me xD I hope I get to tell her: No more jokes that make me cry! :P lol

Oh dear, I'm sorry to hear about your loss! *tighthugs* It's terrible that we have to go through so much heartache but it just shows how close we are to the ones we love. And I think we come out stronger on the other side ♥

:iconwhutplz: A donation pool for a ticket? Why didn't I think of that? Thank you so much for the idea! :glomp: You're BRILLIANT! :iconrubcheeksplz:
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